painted porcelain

must force myself. I need to get up at 6 am. and go on my walk/jog/thing.

and then exersize. annndddd clean my room.

and maybe I’ll go down by the river. or paint a picture.

night <3

summersmilez:

but you deserve to be happy. You are beautiful and you are worth it. 

darlingdragonfly:

Let’s change this.

I must.

by myself.

okay so, yes, I may be 19 years old, but I live with my mother.

my mother likes to eat, and likes to cook.

so I have to eat a little sometimes, and she knows I won’t eat anythign but produce anymore and that she can’t force me, but she freaks out when I fast for days on end and is with me all the time. so….

my new plan:

eat small amounts of raw produce when I must

otherwise- fast

liquids that are allowed- tea, water, black coffee, pure juice

NO NUTS

ONLY raw fruits and veggies when I must.

the end.

P.S. I have to start walking really early in the mornings because it going to be 80-90 degrees alllllllllllll day and most of the evenings. so I’ll walk in the mornings around 6:30/7:00 a.m. okay. time to eat some salad.

<3

my body is retarded and this is why I don’t fit into clothes.

I have 32DD tits

a size 2 waist

size 5/6 hips and HUGE thighs.

so sick of being chubby. I need to be thin almost like a boy again.

I miss my tiny legs.

GOTTA STAY POSITIVE

pronto.

my mood swings are being ridiculous and I need exersize to lift me up today.

I need to work through the pain of my womanly cramps and lose some weight.

pretty excited to get the extra fat off of my body.

really excited to get into some 0/1 size pants and have toned legs again.

ahhhhh I miss my six pack.

yes yes yes

I fucking hate my period.

someone, PLEASE, get this fucking uterus OUT OF ME.

I woke up and wanted to eat. that never happens.

then I forced myself to chug coffee, woke up and realised I was trying to eat whilst half asleep again. noowwwww. I’m goin to clean my house, and walk a shit long time this evening.

<3

that how it is in my mother’s house. NOTHING FOR ME TO EAT EVER